Welcome to my Kingdom…

Life is like a color wheel, sometimes red coz of Love, sometimes blue coz of pains and sufferings; so many colors, so many things that comes to our life, whether it is unexpected or as expected.

In my life, I learned a lot. Since when I was still a kid, I could say I encountered a lot of problems, not just in the family, financially but in all aspect. I thought that I cannot surpass it all. I felt I was so unlucky. I have my physical incapacity, I’ve felt like I am not being loved by my family, I felt like I am not a goo friend.

In my studies, so many ups and downs, I had been eliminated from one of my course in Accountancy because of just one subject that I failed to pass, which it is not really my fault why I got failed, it was my teacher’s negligence, but she ha nothing to do it because it is already filed in the registrar’s record. I had been criticized by my classmates and friends, I felt like I am not worthy to be sent to school. I also encountered criticisms from my classmates because of my defect.There was a time too that my father want me to stop from my studies because of financial problems, but I dont give up, instead I show to them that I am very much willing to finish my studies so that they can be proud of me and I can prove to myself too that I am not totally handicapped, that I also have my potentials that needs to be enhanced. One time, my Brother Alex had told me "Menchu I am sure enough that you cant finish your Computer Engineering course. I had not made it, so I doubt if you can make it too". I was crying that time and I felt like I am not really good to everything. I just prayed God to guide me and enlighten up my mind on what to do. So I continue my studies. Inorder to help financially, I worked during summer and vacations for my tuition fee. And I proved to my my brother Alex that I can make it and even make it to top. So, I studied hard, work hard for my studies. And I am grateful enough because I made it, I had finished my studies and was able to be one of the top student in our class. I never expect it to happen to me. I am grateful to God because He guide me and keep me strong from all of the challenges that comes on my way.

In our family, I am the youngest, and like what other will people will say, youngest is usually the spoiled the brat in the family, but in my case, am not. I felt a bit jealous on my sister Lynn because she is the apple of the eye. It is only mu brother Art who make me feel that I am a little sister, and he is the one who sees my potential. Art or Arturo always give me pieces of advice. And I owe to him, because I put all of those advice into my head and store it in my heart and show it in my actions. It is him that serves as my model in life.  I am thankful for having a brother like him because I came to this stage in my life because of him. I am also thankful for all of my brothers, Romeo, Cesar, Alex and Cirio and sister Lynn for helping me a better person, for making me strong and train me to become independent.

I am grateful for all the people that surrounds me, friends, bestfriens, the man who made me felt great love, neighbors, acquaintance friends and all of the people that touches my life.

I am grateful for all the things that come on my way, the bad and the good things. I thank God for giving me those trials, because through it I made myself strong enough to to face the challenges and to face it wisely. I am thankful too for all the good things that comes on my way because through it I gain my self esteem and confident to myself.

I realized that everything that happens to my life has purpose why it is happening. I thank God that I take all of those criticisms and trials constructively, and always keep myself forward and dont give up easily.

And now, I trust God to rule my life, to lead me to the right path and guide me to a right way. God is the only one who sees what is the best life for me. I remember one message that was sent to me by my bestfriend named Gabriel, it goes "THERE ARE TWO DAYS IN OUR LIFE THAT WE CAN DO NOTHING ABOUT; ONE IS YESTERDAY AND IT IS GONE, WHILE THE OTHER IS TOMORROW WHICH IS UNCERTAIN AND MIGHT NOT COME AT ALL. WE CAN ONLY LIVE IN TODAY: TODAY WE CAN LOVE, WORK, WORSHIP AND ABOVE ALL BE HAPPY!" I really love that message, prayers is the powerful tool inorder to get a guidance from God.

There was one thing in my life that is really not forgotten, or I could say, will always remain in my memory for as long as I am alive.

That was when I was still 4 or 5 years old. One of Aunt, narrated to me about what happened to me by those time.I had been into the hospital for almost one month because I was suffering an undeterminable disease, they said, I am like a paralyze, I cant walk, my body temperature was very high all the time, the doctors said that it is impossible for me to be alive. I had been moved from one hospital to another. I had been attached to an oxygen pump inorder for me to breath because I cant breath.  The doctors was not able to determine my disease. The doctor said to my family to just send me back home and wait for my death. But my father was hopeful. He looked for a quack doctor, and he found one, which was named Lorence. It was being said that Lorence has the power from Santo Nino, the Child Jesus, that can cure all kind of disease. And to make the story short, she did cure me with just a water, no medicine, just pure water treatment which she said, being blessed by the Santo Nino. Lorence said that I was bieng befriended by dwarfs and elves, which I cant remember if I really had a dwarf friend. All I remember was that when me and my Mother went to Manila for a vacation, I had met this little boy of my age that time, he wears all red, I met him when me and my mother went to my Aunt’s place. He just say hi to me and talked to me. My mother that time was busy talking with my Aunt. I really cant forget the face of that boy I met. I dont quite believe with elves and dwarfs, for me, they are just a part of imagination. But, base on what I experience, I think, I slightly believe on it. After Lorence had determine why I am bedridden for a month, little by little, I can move my arms, and my legs and later on, I had been able to walk. I could say that Lorence was right of her findings, because she had cured my disease.

Just the other day, my brother Romeo talked to me on the phone, because he is working in Morocco now, and he narrated to me about it and he was crying because of great joy that he see me now as a full grown up woman, though have a physical defect, and about to get married. He remember those days when I was still in the hospital and figthing between life and death.

This is my second life now, because of that health crisis. I thank God that He had given me another chance to live this life. I thank my family too for their firm hope that I will be alive.

Life is wonderful, full of mysteries, full of suspence, like a movie. The only difference in real situation is that we will not know what will happen on the next scene.

Life is really undeterminable. We will never know what will happen the next minute, the next hour, the next day, or the next year. There are things in our life that will happen unexpectedly. Although I believe in the saying that "Life is what we made it". We are the one in control of our lives, but it is God who will judge us and guide us on what to do, it is up to us if we will follow what God is directed for us to do, it is our choice.

What we can do is to do our best "TODAY", and pray to God for guidance and aske Him help for what to do. I am a God-fearing person, I do believe that it is God who made this world and that He is just watching me in everything that I do. I lay my life to God and I know that He has a good plan for me that He thinks that is good for me. For 25 years, I will say that God is always there beside me, watched closely on me.