Welcome to my Kingdom…

One night, me and my husband were talking about what will happen if one of us will leave each othe, like death. When I come to think of it, I felt like I cant live this world anymore without my husband beside me. Sound crazy, sounded hopeless, but that is what I felt. I know that it is not good to depend yourself to anybody, but I cant keep myself to felt that way.

Chuck was crying, and so do I, when we talk about it. We promised to each other not to leave each other, but we cannot control our lives, anytime from now, we will leave this world.

That is why I always live each day with Chuck like its the end of my life and tomorrow I will die, and so before I will close my eyes to sleep, I will never forget to kiss and say "ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BABE!", as if it is my last words for him. I want to aver how much I love him. It hurst me whenever I think of that day to happen, but life is like that, when there is alpha, then there is also an omega in our lives. That is the constant future that we all have.

For me, making the day a good one, express love to your family, to your love one, to your friends, in any ways, because death is just right beside us, waiting for the right time, so make each day like it is your last day, say "sorry" if you made fault to someone, and say "forgive me"…I know, it is a hard thing to do, but dont you know that those words will make your life great and happy? So, dont be shy, set aside your Pride, coz the Pride is like a termites that will ruin ourselves little by little…

Just take this example, if you will be leaving your town and you will go to other place for good, what you will do for your last day in that town? I am sure, you will say goodbye to your family, friends, and will have a great time with them, talking and laughing with them, making that day a great day with them and before you will left and ride on your car on your way to the airport, you will kiss and say "bye" to every person in your family and hug them so tight….

I just do hope and pray that I will be able to make myself into a better one, not because I wanted to become saint, a hero, a famous, but I wanted to do my best for the glory of God who made me and give me life.

May every people will have a good "end of day" always….Sorry for that term, but that is one way to start a good and meaningful day…

Dear Readers,

I am a devoted Catholic person, with a strong faith to God. I grew up in a very religious family. I spend the holy day, Sunday in the Church with my family and attend some seminars about my religion and active in Church activity. I was also studying in a catholic school run by the religious orders in our town. I just want to impart my views about this issue today about the discovering of Jesus tomb by an archaeologists and had been documented and put to film by James Cameron and Simcha Jacobovici and entitled "The Lost Tomb of Jesus!

I read and watch some of the interviews made about the issue. Actually, at first, I am a bit upset about the issue because it is an insult to my faith as Catholic, as Christian. But, I try to analyze the situation, I try to analyze what is really the impact of it to myself. It is a big challenge for me as a Christian, as a Catholic believer. I remember one priest then, interviewed in the Filipino channel, and being asked about the issue of hidden books being deleted in the Bible, and he accept the truth that the Bible we had now is not the real Bible, it is just a summary of the whole Bible, edited by some persons and made a new version of the Bible. According to what I learned from my religion class too that a Bible is not a book, it is like a mini-library that consist of many books. And it is being said by that priest there were some books that is not included in the new Bible version. I come to question myself, why those other books were being removed? What is the reason behind why it is being removed? And I answer my questions with possibilities;

1. Maybe because those books are not needed. Maybe those books are not considered part or not essential to the faith of Christian follower;

2. Maybe those books contained some sentence that will ruin the image of Christian faith;

Those are the possibilities that comes up to my mind. But this is the question now, if the reason is the first possible the answer to my question, then, why the writer of that book still wrote that book and published and being put to the original Bible? It is beings said that the writers of the Bible were guided by the Holy Spirit…And so, I think, all of the books that was being attached to the original Bible are all essential. It was like a journal or a history book of what was really happening during those times of Jesus. And so, maybe, the second one is the right answer to my question above.

Actually, I read Bible oftentimes. Specially the Book of Proverbs. It serves as my guide to my daily life and serve as my guiding star in the darkness. And I could say, it helped me a lot, not just spiritually, but in emotional and all other aspects in life.

This new discovery now will challenge all of the Catholic-Christians in the world. If it is true that Jesus Christ was married to Mary Magdalene and had a son named Juda, then, it is a big slapped to our faith as Catholic. Because we believe that Jesus was ascended to heaven in flesh, that Jesus Christ had not married to Mary Magdalene, and so, it is impossible to Jesus Christ to have a child named Juda.

But for me, it doesnt affect me anyway. Why? It is because of some reasons. First is that, I dont know the truth about the real life of Jesus, what I knew is those written in the Bible, the Bible is the basis of my knowledge about Jesus. So, for me, it is a new knowledge knowing more about the real life of Jesus and I will not get hurt about it or upset about it because I am innocent and no one can blame me for believing about what is written in the Bible coz nobody knows in this world anyways about the real story of Jesus, of what was really happening during those times. Second, for me, the real God is within our heart. It is being written in the Bible too that our body is the temple of God, and so, God is within us. I will live the life in accordance to God’s will, because I know, it is us who made our life. I believe God as spirit who dwells in me, that lead and guide me all the way. It is in us if we want God to dwells us and live in our life and let HIM guide us and lead us to the right way of life. God wanted all of us to live the life with great comfort and happiness. Just like our own father, our parents, they are always there to guide us, give us pieces of advice and give us all that we need. God is like that. The only difference is that we cannot see God and we cannot see Him in person, because He is a spirit that dwells on us. God give us pieces of advice through the Bible, and I could say that the Book of Proverbs is the compilation of God’s advices for all of us. It is us who will decide if we will follow it or not. It is not God who will suffer the consequences if we disobeyed it, it is us who will suffer in the end. So, for me, I will not blame God for my misfortunes, for my sufferings coz I know God guide me and lead me all the way. I can feel how He worked in me.

For me, the issues about the Lost Tomb is just a new knowledge about Jesus and it does not really affect my faith coz it is just an additional knowledge in history and it doesnt talk about the spiritual aspect of our life. Jesus had his own life, and we will not judge Him as liar. Personally, it is not Jesus who wrote the Bible, isnt it. The writers of the Bible are humans like us, and they are not perfect. I dont blame the writers too. You wanna know who I blame with all this mess up? "I BLAME THOSE PERSON WHO DOES EDIT THE BIBLE". I just wish that they are now forgiven by God with what they did with the Bible. Jesus Christ actually dont have knowledge that his life is being put to words, because, as we all know, Bible was made after the death of Jesus. And so, it is impossible that Jesus Christ dictates the writer on what to write about his life.

Whom to Blame? Those are the editors of the Bible…The person who made the new version of the Bible. May those person may "REST IN PEACE!".

And try to think of this: "GOD WILL NOT JUDGE THE MANKIND BY ITS RELIGION, BUT WITH WHAT IS IN OUR HEARTS, IN OUR MINDS, AND OUR ACTIONS, WHAT WE DO TO OUR FELLOWMEN, TO OUR BROTHERS AND SISTERS!".

God Bless and May you will be guided by your own faith!

1st of March….Actually, I dont have any idea what to say, what to write…I miss my native land, but not got homesick..I had chatted with my bestfriends back in the Philippines and I felt happy knowing that they care for me.

I can still remember the time when I was still in the Philippines with my friends…Having a nonsense but funny talks with them..

I think, I have done enough for an enjoyment during my youth days…As I come to think over it, I could say that I am satisfied with my adolescence…

I can remember the time when I have to woke up early from Monday thru Friday and went to school…

I can remember how lazy I am in waking up early and went to school on time…hehehe ;)…Am always late…I can barely remember one of my instructor, Mr. Julius Caadan how mad he was one morning coz I was late and he said, "Menchu its 2 years since I knew you, but until now, you are still a tardy student…"hehehe :)..I am really like that, always late, since when I was in my elementary…

I miss those sleepless nights that I have in studying my lessons, making projects, doing homeworks and assignments…I miss my school, my classmates, my friends..I cant forget those things we did with my classmates, throwing papers, asking for a sheet paper, making our instructors annoyed by my noisy classmates…Asking if there is assignments..Texting each other about the coverage of the exam or quiz…Texting our instructor if we have a class…hehehe :)…How funny…I miss those times when after examinations, we will be either at the beach for hang out or in a dance club or just in the seashore, to keep our mind relax from the examinations…Haaayyy!!! I really miss those things…

So many things I miss, those things remained a memory for me, that I will treasure for the rest of my life…

I come to realize that nothing is constant, everything will change…Our life have stages to be followed…We have no choice to stay on one stage of our life…WE must have to move on and come to another stage…Life is like that…

For now, I am already prepared for the next stage of my life…All I can do, is to look back and reminisce my past..The thing that I could say a treasure for me…I thank God because He made that stage of my life as a happy one, I’ve enjoyed it, and has passed all the trials on that stage…I am happy to meet those people behind that stage of my life and make my life a wonderful one…

Life is not constant!!! The only constant in life is change!!!

God Bless to all!!!